Sunday, September 03, 2006
i have not updated for quite a while. and while i can't say nth has happened, i cant say tt nothing has either. hee.
may n i hung out for the first time ever. and it was nice to jus sit, pig out and talk - sth i used to do a lot with elaine. may has come to be a really special friend. ilike. (:
harj i guess is not having it very easy but i have faith tt she'll get thru it. its funny tt i truly do feel for her but hold no animosity for the other. i guess i truly believe tt all this was not supposed to happen, not this way at least. i rmmbr looking at the two of them and to some extent envying what they had, hoping tt i'd hv someting jus as special someday.
i guess love isnt supposed to hurt, it isnt supposed to suck, if it does than its not wat we need. i hope harj draws strength from the fact tt there are quite a few ppl out there who care for her immensely.
well, i'm happy to report tt the man and i are doing good - i've never felt happier and safer with anyone else. i'm on top of the world and i wish i cld get ayn n harj up there with me too. its weird how i feel for harj n yet sympathize with ayn.
anyways, met the man yest and had tonnes of fun (:
well, i believe, now, tt its jus me n u.
for always, i hope.
<3
once loved.
6:12 AM
Friday, August 25, 2006
the last couple of days have been pretty trying. and it made me think about the importance of friendships - the ones being forged and those that have stood the test if time and yes, PMS. haha. i remember the time in SR when i used to scramble around school with elaine, laugh profusely, yes, even in the worst of times, she's managed to (sometimes forcefully) put a smile on my face. and i guess, that is one reason i've always found it relatively easy to move on. (the other reason being tt i rarely get emotionally involved with anyone.)
and i vividly rmmbr the time when i felt totally neglected by harj. that phase is largely over and i really do hope tt the girl finds something jus as beautiful and special.(note to harj : but u gotta love me mostest ok?)
to a certain extent, i think i'm rather desperate for this sense of belonging and companionship.
school in a couple of hrs. dang!
speaking of school, may's not in the same sw tutorial - she's having hers on odd weeks n harj n i are having ours on the even weeks. how sucky is tt? also, harj n i have two tutorials alone. tt pretty much means four hrs of potential misery and immense boredom.
once loved.
3:05 AM
Friday, August 18, 2006
we sat on the grass patch, our heads tilted back, our faces wearing expressions of pure delight. the fireworks were spectacular. the little ones, the big ones, the little ones in the big ones, the sudden burst of colour in the dark sky, the little cuddles, kisses sneaked in between. the nyt was beautiful, the company even more so.
it was weird tt the most special people were watching the sky light up too, but we were all in different places - i was at marina bay with him, bern, kavee n the gang were at raffles place and kesh and faizal were at the bridge close to the fullerton.
ah. i miss the gang. school wld be so so much better if bern n elaine were there too. its funny how close elaine n i were and how, now, these blogs are like the only things keeping us involved in the other's life. oh, how i love that girl. (=
you make my world go round, yes u do, only YOU. <3
once loved.
3:35 AM
Wednesday, August 16, 2006
yesterday, i had to travel 1000000hrs from pasir ris to clementi just to fill up my postal code. annoying. and sat was such an ass but, a sweet one at that. *laughs
P.S. sat, i'm very unlikely to kill/harass/yell at sha. but, at least, now we know he's scared of me. (:
went for a social work lecture on monday. ohboy. after an hour i could do nth but stone and doodle. also, i need to start getting stuff to read. annoying.
i believe tt may is in love w kavee and vice versa. and, i'm sure tt everyone who knows them thinks the same way too. so, pls, may n kav, do the world a favour and get together. i can't take the two of u apart anymore. hee! really, u guys are a match made in heaven - both are equally strange, enjoy making others wait, enjoy screaming for no reason. i know i'm making no sense but its cause i'm dreading to go to sch. haiz.
the man's outfield. no communication for 72hrs. die can. i think i've finally begun to appreciate how difficult it is for him to make time for all of us. so, i feel quite guilty for being overly fussy/demanding. i just love that boy la. (:
once loved.
3:44 AM
Saturday, August 12, 2006
i still can't get over the fact that school's about to begin. yes, i'm not all that excited. its not like i can't wait to be bombarded with work, exams, work, work, exams. *sheesh.
i saw kirsten on thursday. she's still as loud and as adorable as ever. i miss 2A1.
i went clubbing/sitting around/looking at the bartop dancers on wednesday. i know, i know, finally. hee. i have to admit, it wasnt tt bad. yes, even though i cant dance. but,i sucuumbed to the pressure and danced(if u can even call it tt) ten mins before leaving. hurhur.everyone was so much warmer than i expected. ilike! i even spoke to ayn and her sister. and believe me, that girl is so nice lah. (:
he's seriously the sweetest ever, even i find it hard to believe. its so special, the way he does the things tt he does. hohoho!
i'm gonna hold u forever.
once loved.
3:59 AM
Sunday, August 06, 2006
the answer to all my prayers,
i'm so glad i found
you.
once loved.
6:34 AM
Friday, August 04, 2006
life is difficult. there are the mountains and then, there are the valleys. i guess the problem lies in making the best of a bad situation.
school's just about beginning and i really do feel that the holidays could have been that much longer. i already miss doing nothing. the long journey is the killer i have to learn to get used to.(: the saving grace is that i get to be with harjy all day. i hope we get the same lecture slots. if i don't then may and/or kavee would suffice - i'm not fussy.
what would hv made uni life near perfect is if the whole of 2A1 was together.. marcus and all. i mean what could beat the craziness of jac n kirsten, the senseless philosophies of daniel, the lameness that is marcus and the history genius - asya. i dearly miss running around with elaine, having berni steal my food, running to selina for econs answers and (a lot of the time) trying to kill bibi.
i get to meet the man tmr - yayness! and i think i'm totally in love w anishka. no, as far as i know, i hv no lesbian tendencies but she really is so warm. i like!
once loved.
6:20 AM
