Wednesday, February 16, 2005
highlight of the day.. heeexxi spoke to pueue.. but it wasnt the usual, i'm right, you're wrong thing.. it was gd.. in a lot of ways.. i still feel that i want stuff.. like there can be stuff..although sub smses and all, i guess its not the same.. pueue annoys me totally but there is this sense of joy in that...izzit lluuuuuuuuurrrrrrrrvvvvvvvveeeeeeee??? ha hai hope not.. right now things are pretty grey.. had a major misunderstandin of some sort with pueue.. i guess i'm a lil sensitive.. maybe cuz i had hoped..and today a fren was like "there's james and you'd rather someone else?"yeah, james is cute.. got a great bod and all.. but its not the same... really..i guess sometimes u just want somethings..and even wen pueue does sth mean.. i kow in essence, he's a pretty great person.. and i think an edited version of e song.."he's holding back
he's hiding
but what i can't decide
why wont he be the guy i know he is
the guy he is inside"
i hope that i'd feel this good abt things everyday.. to some extent, its like feeling on cloud nine all over again.. *smiiiillllllllleeeeeesssssss*the feeling is good.. surreal maybe.. makes me feel very positive and hopeful abt things.. but is that what i should be feeling??pueue is like on my mind when i go to bed and the first thing on my mind when i wake up.. *saddd*to keep the faith or not?? i'm thinkin..laine and har-jin-der are cummin over to change tml.. kinda cant wait.. shd be fun.. hv got to attend evenin of hearts.. yet to decide wat to wear.. ha ha..dad jus came to tell me to go to bed.. haiz.. =)i love all of u.. very much..
once loved.
11:45 PM