Sunday, April 17, 2005
.sometimes.
sometimes i ask myself if i can make it to NUS.i guess deep inside i know i can if i work. i feel the urgency. and i'm starting to work. at least i hope so. i didn't think i cld get into a jc bt i did. i didn think i'd make it to yr 2 but i did. i guess i can do it. if i want it bad enough.
sometimes i wonder if i'd be better of in MI. Poly's outta the qn. i never aspired to go there. the pace in a jc is like wooooooshhhhhhh. it dozen wait for u. u gotta catch it. i dn wanna have to repeat the a's cus i know that if i put my everything into it, i'll do it. but its hard. its getting harder everyday.
sometimes i wonder if i'd be better of in a CCA like astronomy or publications. i guess i'm a publication kinda person. if there's such a thing. its not like i'm doing that much in council. and maybe, i want to.
sometimes i wonder why people set themselves up for hurt.sometimes we get into relationships that we know can
never work. why then do we still pursue it? that too, above all else. maybe i have this strong gut feeling that the one i care so much abt will never comprehend. i know how this whole thing will play out. and i know who will end up with all the cuts. i love her as i would a sister and i want the best for her and i know that this is not it. this is far frm it. her significant other is a nice person. yes. but i have this feeling. period. the only way someone can get hurt is if they're emotionally att to a special someone. and emotional attachment comes thru machachaying. i hope she will sheild herself. i hope she will step out of dreamland and see things just the way they are. but until then, and i know that it'll bea long while to come, i'll be there.
sometimes i wonder randomees.what i m trying to do. what i'm trying to achieve w hotstuff. and i wondeer and wonder and wonder. i m wasting my time. i shd be studying.
and i miss keshes, harjz, 2k and hotstuff so very much. and i hope they know that they're always in my thoughts. *they annoy me alot.. so basically they're on my mind 24/7*
once loved.
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