Tuesday, December 13, 2005
in the guise of a friend - an all caring, 'i want the best for u' kinda disposition- she lied. i trusted her n she knew tt but she did it all the same. i thought i was pretty nonchalent about it but now i know i'm not - i'm bitter. i'm not upset about what she did, i just dont know why she did it.
there are a lot of things i wish i didn do, i wish i didn say. but the what if's are just a huge waste of time. and i'm thinkin n thinkin n thinkin abt it and i'm fully aware tt i will therefore prolly be a gazillion times more depressed than I ever was initially. I suspect I might just be like one of those many people around, constantly making themselves feel miserable and pathetic deliberately.
on a much lighter note.
i saw may today. in lil india. her usual chirpy self.
i love may.
she was tellin me how curry spilled on her pants.
i miss may.
once loved.
2:47 PM
