Thursday, March 23, 2006
things hv gotten pretty messsed up again, thanks to urs truly. neither of us wants to give in. neither of us wants to accept what the other is sayin. or maybe/probably its jus me. im nt entirely sure why this is happening considerin how much i want things to work out. i guess tt the harder u try, the more difficult it is to get to where u're tryin to go.
''accomodate n compromise'' doesn seem to be workin tt well these days. im afraid cus i've come to depend, to need him too much and i wonder wats gonna happen when we reach the end of the road. the end. is it in sight? is it nearer than i think? i wonder. it breaks my heart. and yet, i've gotta pretend to be my willful nonchalent self. i've gotta act tt the very things tt matter most to me are things i'm nt affected by. and, its difficult. what i want is to be needed, to be wanted, to feel important.
i need a hug. )=
once loved.
6:16 AM
