Thursday, June 01, 2006
it was not very long ago when i found pretty much every other guy cute and, that's something i've not been very proud of and sometimes, the emotional baggage is ridiculously overwhelming. looking back, i think i was just in love with the idea of being in love. i mean, who can say tt having someone to gaze at, to dream with and to share everything with is a bad thing? i guess, i was looking too hard. i was relentlessly pursuing 'love.' ha! and a lot of the time, cupid forgot to shoot his arrow.
as i reflect on where i was and where i'm at ryt now, i think tt i've grown up. and i've got one person to thank for that - him. well, he's made me see that u dont hv to fight for things tt are meant for u, tt u dn hv to impress and tt being yourself is pretty much enough. i'm so grateful to have him in my life and i think tt he'll always always always hv a place in my heart. yes, even if the story ends.
i guess i'm at the point in my life where i'm totally content with the who i have and the thought of deliberately hurting him or replacing him seems almost inconceivable. a relationship is no longer being with any weirdo or feeling warm and fuzzy all day. it has become sth about sticking together thru the good, the bad and the very very bad. i hv come a long way eh?
i'm not sure if what i hv now is 'meant to be' but i sure hope to god that it is. wat i'm sure of is tt he makes me happy. very very happy.
---------------
Time...
I've been passing time watching trains go by,
All of my life...
Lying on the sand, watching seabirds fly
Wishing there would be
Someone waiting home for me...
Something's telling me it might be you
Yes it's telling me it might be you...
All of my life...
Looking back as lovers go walking past...
All of my life...
Wondering how they met and what makes it last
If I found the place
Would I recognize the face?
Something's telling me it might be you
Yeah it's telling me it might be you..
So many quiet walks to take
So many dreams to wake
And we've so much love to make
I think we're gonna need some time
maybe all we need is time...
And it's telling me it might be you
All of my life...
I've been saving love songs and lullabies
And there’s so much more
No one's ever heard before...
Something's telling me it might be you
Yeah it's telling me it must be you...
And I’m feeling it’ll just be you...
All of my life...
Maybe it's you...
Maybe it's you...
Ive been waiting for all of my life
it might be you. (:
once loved.
4:22 AM
