Tuesday, July 11, 2006
it really bewildering how some relationships end just like that, without heading down the slippery slope. perhaps, one partner does not realize the road to the end. its really outrageous the way someone can say to another, "i'm sorry, i don't love you any more." to some degree, its pretty scary to think how volatile things can be. its scary to think how one day, u myt be on top of the world and the next day, you're trying to pick up the pieces and move on.
and i wonder, would it really be possible for once lovers to just become friends, for them to flash a smile without some sense of melancholy.
its the longest time i've been seeing someone and the thought that someday it might end is really quite freaky. i mean, how do u get on without someone who's grown on you. how do u accept that his heart is no longer yours. how do u attempt to fake nonchalence when he tells u about this girl who has captivated his mind, imagination and possibly his heart? well, if it were me, as much as i'd really truly want him to be happy, i wouldn be able to be okay with being friends - sure, his and byes wouldnt hurt but i'm sure i'd feel this little prick in my heart each time i saw him.
the what ifs of the future are perhaps preventing me from wholly enjoying the now. he's everything i could ever ask for. and, each and every day it becomes increasingly difficult to think of letting go.
no, there is no trouble in paradise. in fact, things are as good as they could possibly be. its just that i see relationships falling apart around me because both parties aren't on the same wavelength anymore.
he's a part of my life; just a part i won't let go.
once loved.
1:45 AM
